Time and Positioning

Why do we keep battling with the notion of time and positioning in this world? I know I do!… Let’s get real, I constantly feel like a failure. I see people younger than me with a family, or an amazing career, or both. I’m not there yet, some may think I’m not even close. There’s a lot of it that doesn’t get to me anymore, and I’m thankful to God for that. But it isn’t always easy. It isn’t always positive. I’m closer than maybe a month ago, but the road still seems long. What keeps me waking be up everyday with a smile on my face every morning? Knowing that this season matters. That the moment I see all those dreams realized, there’ll be nothing that can take them away.

See? Divorce is real and threatening, job loss is palpable, businesses fail, humans fail. But the moment I stand on the ground of my blessing I know my humanity won’t tear it apart. The moment God brings a that man into my life is the moment God will be able to hold us both, as a couple. The moment the business skyrockets God will take it as far as He can sustain it. I can achieve those things today, but their tomorrow won’t be guaranteed because my strength can fail me, but God’s hand doesn’t shake.

I’m willing to wait as long as God needs to be working in me so that when those things come, it is He through me and not me on my own. Other people who have what I hope for can fail, maybe they’re trusting God just like I hope to do. My battle isn’t with them, it;s with my own flesh and my own twisted mind that feels constantly cheated and thinks I should have what others enjoy. It’s a lie.

Nothing that is for me can be stolen because God owns it and no one can truly steal from Him.

People’s blessings are theirs to enjoy, as will be mine for me. No one robbed me of my future husband, if it didn’t work out with someone, it wasn’t it. If an opportunity didn’t come my way, it wasn’t it. If being an entrepreneur didn’t work as planned, it wasn’t it — not the time, or not the way. Regardless, God will make “it” all work out, for His glory, His way, and in His time.
I’m not late, with God, things are always on time.